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Death and loss are inevitable in the quest for the greater good, but one would think with abilities and such that are beyond the extent that the average man pushes himself there would be some control over these situations. When in fact there is no stopping it. I feel that I have failed my friends, and now it seems that my own mind is assaulting me for it. I have failed, Danyelle has been lost to me twice, Uthgar the Great dwarven knight was also killed and I could not save him, Dean died as well and it seems dumb luck and no talent that brought him back, How many more times will I fail before it is I that meets my end and not in some great battle for the good of the world, but in my own mind killed in my sleep by my own guilt. I was indeed assaulted in my sleep by what appeared to be my self, but then it changed, grew somehow more sinister, how can I fail so often. It is not this near death encounter that struck me so deeply, but the fact that the accusations of failure he threw at me rang so true, I let them die I deny it say I did all that I could, but if that were true they would still stand beside me. What happens to us all when I fail and it is Elana that meets her end. Perhaps then my conscience will finish the job, but I do vow that I will become strong enough not to fail again |
